i believed

I fell for the boy,
The boy I though was meant for me,
I fell for the boy,
Oh god, how wrong could I be?

I abandoned all my friends,
I didn’t tell them till the end,
I wanted to get away,
But in my heart I wanted to stay.

I believed that it was the right thing to do,
I believed that our love was true,
But when we arrived together,
our love got severed.

Things went from bad to worse,
And somehow I was always dipping in my purse, I said I didn’t mind but really I did,
I only did this because I loved you.

And what did you do to show me you loved me back,
well you stabbed me in the back,
And you told me that you were going out,
you were drinking lots,
and then you’d come back and you’d demand sex.

And at the same time,
I was revolted,
but it was getting to touch you,
getting to feel your presence near me,
so I let you have your way.

I then afterwards I felt dirty, used,
I hated myself,
but I felt like you loved me anyway.

And things got worse.

Clenched hand met my face.

I’d never had that before,
my mouth was bleeding but somehow I liked the taste.

This doesn’t seem right
This doesn’t seem right
This doesn’t seem right
I believed in you and me

This doesn’t seem right
This doesn’t seem right
This doesn’t seem right
I believed in you and me